gettingitoff

I have no blogged in awhile. My weight plateaued for several months. I think it’s due to high stress and not being happy with myself or my marriage. I dont’ know if things are getting any better, but one think I realzed when we seperated is that no man wants a  fat girl and whether I stay with my husband or move on in life, no matter what I do to my hair, clothing, makeup, tanning, etc my weight won’t change unless I DO something about it. I keep coming up with excuses to over eat, to indulge, to not workout. NO MORE. I will not allow food and obesity to run my life. It is spring, time for change, big changes. I have a pt job at a local gym, where I receive a free membership as well as other perks. I am startin to feel better about myself and inspired to exercise and eat right, seeing all the “high class” people that are working their butts off to stay fit. I want to be that person. I want to be able to go to the gym to maintain a weight, to be thin, to be admired. I want to be that person. Now, how do I get there? That’s the kicker, isn’t it? We always want what we can’t or don’t have. *sigh* maybe one day…….